University and Me

I almost so busy for lately. After hardworks, prays, tears and sweats, I got this for sure. This is really made me humm, yes so proud of myself. Well, I had very geougeous rap performing and being on air @ DJ FM Surabaya :) what awesomeness! I'll share to yawl later.

Don't forget to smile guys ! It will helps you thru every hard day :D

Runaway From This Crowd..

Lately I'm not doing any neccessary things. I just spent my long long long holiday with unimportant job : sleep + eat + sleep + eat. I just put some carbs and fats into my body, and the weirdo thing is I just can't handle myself to stop it. If I force myself to stop, that means more I eat some foods again. I just don't know what's happened to my body. Maybe I live in these pressures around so I just feel...... Depressed.

High School Flashback

For Again

Maybe I'm not. Or maybe I am. Just drained my energy to becoming minus from zero. Calculated every inch of breath-taking love and suck it to the ground. So wrong that I could be. For somehow times passed and I always wrong again for more. And I am so dissapointed which was happening to myself either. I walked into you but nothing response even you said some yes-es for me. I held your hands but nothing change even you said that you feel the same as I do. Maybe just in my imagination, that I'm belong to you....

Combats The Lavender

Nikicio long dress - Zara belt - F21 feather ring

Lately I'm so pushed myself too much. Maybe fullfiled of pressure make me is so uncomfortable even if I had my own body to go. I need some refreshment, not calling a general air, but really need some recess. I had a very badly insomn. I could steady weady turned on eyes without fall asleep for 4 days or more. Maybe it would be worse on someday. But somehow, I let it go just like nothing happened. And so badly for today, I'm so tired to being an insomnian. I have to cure myself, but how? I know I have to sleep. But I couldn't for these couple days. Although I hadn't got some rest night, I could stand and doing all the jobs all day long without feel tired or something! Weirdo huh? My friend told me if I'm not tell this to the doctor, my liver would be get sick. Hey, my father is a doctor and he's not caring me even if I'm sleeping or not! LOL. Yap, maybe today is the punishment because of I had so rare time to take rest. And somehow I need some sleeps. Good night :)

Relationship Love

‎​There're so enough bullshitness relationship, it's all just ruin many and gain nothing. It's so wasting time. By sex before marriage? Their mindset are too childish for me and I couldn't get used to them. Relationship is about caring, love each other, feel togetherness, happy, and anykinda things that you could name it. So badly I just dig into some wrong holes, when besides I'm not seeing you before.

I don't ever care of what you looks like, or what you wear, or even anything elses. I am so fall into you, for this shortly time, we never meet yet, but I'm so exactly deeply feel so comfortable to being on your side.. You know how to treat woman, I'm so appreciated that.

Not every guy doing like that, I mean, how to treat women for real.

Thank you for came into my life just in the right time.

Block Battles VI

For a big YES I want to join them so right away performing (again) after a long long time taking break. But yeah, I have another job to do on my list, and I couldn't make it. So I think maybe next time I will have another chance to grab the microphone and shout on the stage. I really really miss that. :( for some reasons, for myself, rap gather like this is also build our togetherness along friendshipness and partner. Some of rappers will be performing on that day and it would be nicer if I'm attended this ocassion. So badly luck, I couldn't :(

So if you're wanna join with us, make some yells and screamo with words also beats, just come and free yourself!

Bandung, I'm in Love !

Cotton Ink stripy tanks - Hardware adjustable cardigan - Zara belt

- F21 ring - Gaudi Jeans - Lynes flats - Clementine drawstring bag

Walkdown of Life

Lynes studded flat shoes - Clementine drawstring slingbag

Bloom and Boom

flowery layered upper - Polo Ralph Laurent cardigan - Kipling bag - Wondershoe flat

Inhales and Exhales.

I'm so fall into you. Like the soft of lychee martini.
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Smells Freshy Air of Life

I wrote this when I'm still in Madina. Well, this is my 4th times for omra. Alhamdulillah :)

I went to Jeddah from Jakarta by plane of course, using Garuda Indonesia, I left Jakarta on Sunday afternoon, around 4pm indonesian west time. Then I arrived at Jeddah around 10pm on KSA time. It takes 9 hours from Soekarno-Hatta airport Jakarta to King Abdul Aziz airport Jeddah. No rest of time, we shall got to Makkah by bus. It was take 2 hours to Makkah after we had taken our spell "niat" for omra called as "Ihram". If you had taken your ihram, there's so much rules you have to obey. If you don't, you have pay the fare (buy camel or goats) and your omra will be canceled.

We arrived at Makkah around 2am, after we had rest for 30minutes, we hurried to Masjidil Haram for Tawaf and Sa'i before Subuh's adzan. The weather in Saudi is now summer. On the night like this, it's about 29 degrees of celcius, and could be 50 degrees of celcius on day. It's so hottie and dryness summer! You should put lip balms and mosturizers to keep your skin from out of its wetness. Just like my skin now is so dying dryness, and it's so flirting to be rubbed. But when I scratched it, my skin is painfully bleeding and hurt. Don't forgot about your heels too, it would be so dry and rough because its dryness. So the conclusion is, don't forget to bring your lipbalms and lotions! :p

Although it seemed like I was so painful and hot, it's not just the same if we're visiting our God there; find for His mercy acceptance of our sins, and between the sweats and tears, we're here now is just finding His awesomeness heaven to be we live it later after we die. As you know that we're just life in this whole world for a very short time. So don't we never try to waste it, do we? Ka'bah is so soulful place I love. People from all over the world are gather in one heart, sweats and tears, hoping for Allah's mercy. Bismillahiallahuakbar, as we screamed about, In the name of Allah the biggest for all.

After 3 days stayed in Makkah, we left for Madinah, our prophet Muhammad's place. I love to being here in Madinah. It's not about just a soulful place, but it has a love and welcomeness from our prophet Muhammad to be here. We'll feel so in love with Muhammad and we'll remembering his big deal of spreading Islam. He's the one we love, our love. And don't forget about Ajwa's kurmas. It's Muhammad's kurmas. Its measurement is about a thumb of adult man and deep colored of black. Its skin is rough and it's so tasty. Try to eat 7 of it every morning breakfast and as Muhammad says we'll covered from bad black magic. Inshaallah.

The interesting taste of arabian foods are: they're not so tasty and spicy, besides they love to put some herbs to make them so smelly and they love ketchup so much! That's why I think only indonesian's food which combine all about herbs, spices, taste, and also still smells so good. Arabian people love to eat a very sweet dessert. As the example, they put some whipped creams, chocolates, and syrups on their tasty yet ice cream! And don't forget about their monster's portions. If we are indonesians could share a basket of bread, they just eat it for theirself! A basket of bread for a people! That's why they're so bigger than other asians people.

Not too much pictures I took. but I felt heavenly peaces while stayed there :)

May Allah Bless our each day in life :)
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